Jim van den Bos
Everything is chaos now
I recognize it cus’ I know
My wall, capable of holding all
Is now only salt, crumbling tall
In the night I tumble, turn and toss
Grieving unearned gains and loss
Dreaming of what could’ve been
Realizing I could never have seen
So I sit here with hasty breathing
Accompanied by my own spirit seething
Realizing my actions we’re really good, actually
Well thought out and actually based on the past I learned from
I don’t think I need to abide by my rules
I proved myself to myself in the past, I simply did not witness
So shut up
I am in chaos now, but I always revel here
It’s simple
This is known to me
Here I can be me
I am here, in this beautiful distress