Decision

So you made a decision
Leaving me out of breath on the way home
Cycling with all left strength after today
To find my safety alone
It was your decision

So you made a decision
Leaving all our friends crying, 
And me drying those tears with
All traces of strength left in me
It was your decision

So you made a decision
Leaving all we had and I tried profitlessly behind
Only unavoidable questions and wondering 
And reaffirmed knowing, now forcing conclusion
It was your decision

So you made a decision
Underlining sometimes everything is not enough
Emphasizing loneliness in the middle of your full life
Smacking truth down about your “I am OK”
It was your decision

And here I am left to imagine how you made your decision.
In that little moment when you had to choose, 
About leaving 
or facing the overwhelming confusion, of that which others seem to feel is, normal life, 
You gathered your strength, 
And then you wondered about the next step. 
off 
or onward, 
and you decided. 
And so,
I imagine, 
you made your decision, 
and you left us.

Left me with my thoughts
All I’ll do,
for the beauty in all or most of our memories, 
All I’ll do 
is love you. 

It was your decision. 
It was your decision to make.