Enough

Smelling you, while hugging, tight but not too much
Laughing at your jokes, not too loud, but first though
Touching your skin, every chance I got, swiftly
Feeling things you brought me, passingly, truly

I never did it enough
It was not enough
I wish I didn’t think
I wish I only went for it

The eyes of others kept me from the maximum
Their tongues wagging kept me from moving
The lingering opinions kept me from speaking
But nothing they did kept me from feeling it all

Still I dared not, to show you
I did not speak my heart
I convinced myself I wanted to protect you
But actually I feel now
I was afraid
I was afraid
Enough