Jim van den Bos
I wonder how other people live
I wonder what moments they stop
I wonder what demands their awareness
I wonder if it’s ever me
I see how people are
I see how people act
I see how people behave
I see how people pretend in front of me
I witness fake familiarity
I witness fake curiosity
I witness fake anonymity
I witness fairness in front of me
I recognize the safety of fake popularity
I recognize, so much
My tongue disguises too much
the plain faces tell me too much
I’ve never been taught too much
so where do I stand.
and where do you
no certainty tells me
what I am now supposed to do now
I wonder and worry
I see but I don’t know
I witness you being
I recognize we’re the same
So now what
I want to scream I know
I want to scream I see
I want to scream I think
I try not to scream
I’m scared for judgement
I’m scared seeing that judgement
I’m scared to be judged about seeing
I’m scared to be judged
stuck in my position
stuck in between thoughts
stuck between knowing
stuck where I am
I think too much
I feel too much
I perceive too much
I wonder how other people live